我

当我一个人漫无目的穿梭在人群中。你是否能了解那种孤单又寂寞的感觉，仿佛全世界就只有我一个人。这种感觉在你离开后出现了。我才发现，其实，一直以来我在依赖着你。我在想，可能是你厌倦了守护着我的日子，可能是我一直没有把感谢说出口，让你觉得一切都是白费的。可是，在你离开的时候，你有没有回过头看一看被你遗弃在后头的我，孤零零的我、无助的我、依赖着你的我、没有办法独立的我。我常在想，你离开的这段日子里，你有没有曾经后悔过，可是我没有勇气问你，我怕。怕看到我不想看的。你的信件中，显示的是，你的幼稚，你是在用幼稚来掩饰你的难过吗？还是离开之后，你变了？

她开始不想听我诉苦了。我该怎么办? 虽然她口头上没说，我却感觉得出来，她不耐烦了，我除了她，没在告诉任何人你的事情，我该向谁诉苦？我不想失去这一个朋友，所以，我不想让她觉得我很烦。那现在我只能这样做了，对所有人诉苦。因为，我不知道该怎么办了。因为，我累了。因为，我不想再继续下去了。忘记一个人，比记得一个人更辛苦。放弃一个人，比爱上一个人更辛苦。但至少，我，曾经幸福过。

你

茫茫人海中，我和你相遇。这是一种缘分吗？

在这一段时间里，我们都在赛跑，在跟时间，一切赛跑。原本以为，一路上会有你陪着我，我不用害怕会跌倒，原本以为，一切都会好好的，可是，就在我开始依赖你，你离开了，无声无息的离开了。你说，我们是两个世界的人，可能你说得对。我们的确是两个世界的人。以前不管在哪里，我都会看见你，后来，我看不见你，却依然能够跟随你的脚印走向你，现在，我什么也没有了，留下来的只有回忆。回忆在怎么美丽，也只是回不去的过去，你再怎么珍贵，也只会是我一辈子的回忆，一个过客。我们的过去，就像一场烟火，美丽、迷人、灿烂、耀眼，可是却也是短暂的，短得我连珍惜的机会都没有，短得我连挽留的机会都没有。我们的过去，是我人生中的一场梦，一场我不想回忆的梦，一场我想要忘记的梦，一场令我心痛的梦。我还不能够确定，我到底梦醒了吗？可是我很确定，是时候醒来了，我不应该在留恋过去。是时候选择放弃，放弃你。

am i alone?

sometimes feeling very lonely, like no one's there for me. sometimes something happen everyone is there. i don't know when to trust everyone, i don't whether to trust who, i am lost. and very lost. i think i need some time to figure it out. before this the exam is making me pressure myself i don't have time to think about it. i even ignore it. now after exam i fear my results of all subject no matter how much think i have done to make me feel calm. i told myslef my result will not be good. so it's alright. i think i will get last ten in my class and i keep telling myslef that this is alright but actually it's not. everything that is happening affected my studies nade me lost concentration in my studies and now my result shows the effect. feeling like i wanna ignore everything but this is impossible. bcuz of all the things happen during exam, i failed to concentrate. i tell nobody about this including her. now, i will think everything over again. and see if i have made the wrong decision. hate it when things turn up like this. make me feel like a loser.

haiz

life is happy? sad? miserable? how many times i need to cry this year? hate it! hate it when i cry and i can do nothing to stop it! so terrible when i cry! nobody can comfort me, and there's just me alone when i cry! am i still alo0ne? no! i hv lots of friends out ther! thinking more and more maybe later i cry again! haiz, why me leh? also me! nobody else to hurt meh you all? so fun ah? but i still so damn stupid after so many ppl cheated on me. still an idiot! never change. haiz! change la! become smarter la. come on! i control my destiny! right! i can ! smile!XD

HUrTeD

Hurted by you, you seem so calm like nothing happened i don even know what's happening. then now i decided to run away i don wanna face you anymore since you don like it, it's fine to me. just fine. i will just quit and do nothing. please don ask me for help later. cuz you hurted me, i don wanna be the dumb girl anymore. being used and used. what? you think that i am so generous? help everyone that needed my help. like dungu ah? if i help you after this i must be out of my mind or i am already insane. you stupid foolish idiot person that i hated since this year. who are you to do so? who are you to treat me like this?

Bukan Cinta Biasa

Begitu banyak cerita
Ada suka ada duka
Cinta yang ku ingin tulis
bukanlah cinta biasa

Dua keyakinan beza
Masalah pun tak sama
Ku tak ingin dia ragu
Mengapa mereka selalu bertanya

Cintaku bukan di atas kertas
Cintaku getaran yang sama
Tak perlu dicari
Kerana kuyakin ada jawabnya oh...
Andaiku bisa merubah semua
Hingga tiada orang terluka
tapi tak mungkin
Ku tak berdaya
Hanya yakin menunggu jawapnya

Janji terikat setia
Masa merubah segala
Mungkin dia kan berlalu
Ku tak mahu mereka tertawa

Diriku hanya insan biasa
Miliki naluri yang sama
Tak ingin berpaling
Tak ingin berganti
Jiwaku sering saja berkata

Andai ku mampu ulang semula
Ku pasti tiada yang curiga
Kasih kan tiada terduga
Hanya yakin menunggu jawapan

我想我不会爱你 애인 친구 이상 이하

sometimes i look at myself through the mirror, i will think am i still me? you, make me like an dumb dumb girl, searching for a safer place for her to stay. what should i do? stop or go on? i am starting to be sick of the 'above friends below lover' talk, so ? so what, this is what you'll say. you don think that there's something wrong.
today, yuen said, everyone seems to have problem and everyone have been looking moody today. i asked, do i? she said, just the two of us don have. but the truth is the both of us have problems too. our own problem.
he seems moody, he seems moody too, she seems moody, she seems moody too.

everyhting is complicated and i am trapped!