having quite a new life here. trying to control every single time i see you and try to control not to look at you. but i am too used to it i guess this will a long time for me to achieve my goal. life without you is not quite finally, even though things don turn out quite right in my life for now but i am trying to solve my own problem without involving you into my problem. you are having your own life and i know i have to find my own too. things in life don turn out right but i'll try my best to do it as right as i can. akthough i feel that i am a failure but i'll still try cuz you told me once i can do anything that i think i can and i have faith in that. i may not be the best but i will try my best to make you proud so that you can let go and go on with your life without me.
i am quite dissapointed in you this year. you didn't act like you should be. maybe it's my fault i apologise for anything i did wrong. it's just many things come out from no where and every new thing come with a problem. i am not a good problem solver. so i am very sorry if i ever offended you this few weeks.
life will just be okay without you i will get used to it.
