am i alone?

sometimes feeling very lonely, like no one's there for me. sometimes something happen everyone is there. i don't know when to trust everyone, i don't whether to trust who, i am lost. and very lost. i think i need some time to figure it out. before this the exam is making me pressure myself i don't have time to think about it. i even ignore it. now after exam i fear my results of all subject no matter how much think i have done to make me feel calm. i told myslef my result will not be good. so it's alright. i think i will get last ten in my class and i keep telling myslef that this is alright but actually it's not. everything that is happening affected my studies nade me lost concentration in my studies and now my result shows the effect. feeling like i wanna ignore everything but this is impossible. bcuz of all the things happen during exam, i failed to concentrate. i tell nobody about this including her. now, i will think everything over again. and see if i have made the wrong decision. hate it when things turn up like this. make me feel like a loser.