Giving up

when i fall for you, i was thinking oh my goodness how can i fall for you? but that issue didn't bother too long, i just felt that it's fine, i'll just keep it as a secret from you. but slowly i started asking for more, you're treating me the same way as you are but i just felt like you're not treating me good enough. getting jealous, envy the people who can fool around with you. everything is making me crazy. wanted to make you study, at least have a target you have none. finding we came from both totally different world and belongs to it makes me frustated for a long term of time but when make things up in my mind i made my decision giving up on you is the best choice. it is not that between the both of us there's no chance it is just me. i can't accept it, when i think if we may fight over small things next time, it is better for me to get things cleared up. i just hope to maintain as friends with you, that's all for now. everyone is having their problems. some people share it with their friends some people hide it some people...ignore their problem. i am now facing one of my problem it is not the bigges but is the most complicated one. i cry over a song when i listen to the lyrics bcuz of you. the singer wasn't good but the song is good, the lyrics are good, i cry for an hour bcuz of the song and you. i admire my idol like i admire you but i didn't cry over an issue of them even i am dissapointed but i didn't cry. i cried over you!!! how amusing~